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"I Cry" by Leeland

Our son David, a student in his second year of medical school, was in a skiing accident a year and a half ago, causing severe damage to his brain. In the span of an instant, everything changed. David, valedictorian of his high school graduating class and an aspiring pediatric surgeon, now couldn’t tie his own shoes.

The weeks and months after he came home from the hospital were hell for my wife and me. Obviously he couldn’t continue in school. Doctors told my wife and I that David would likely never speak again. He could only mumble incoherently—we never could understand what he wanted.

During this period of transition, things were not easy for my wife and me. Between the hours spent in therapy and our feeble attempts to be patient and receptive to his needs at home, tension between us grew. We eventually reached a point where we took out our frustrations on each other, often resorting to endless arguments and sometimes physical confrontations, I am ashamed to say.

Up until the accident, we had always had a happy marriage. It was as if our honeymoon had never ended. But we weren’t prepared for something like this. It tore at the fabric of our relationship to the point where we no longer knew each other. It was like waking up from a coma to a spouse you vaguely remembered. I tried to convince her that we needed counseling, but she refused. I think the situation had progressed so much that she was no longer emotionally invested in our relationship nor in that between her and her son.

One day, I came home from work and found David crying in a tub of cold bathwater. By the looks of him, I think my wife had left him sitting there for several hours. Shortly thereafter, I got a text message from her. “I’m done”, it read. I called her repeatedly that night and the following day, but she didn’t answer. It’s been over six months, and I still haven’t heard from her.

Now, it’s just me and David. The feelings of loneliness and anguish are hard to deal with as a Christian. Why does God allow this to happen to David?! To ME?!

True Artistry

Is it that you believe that I am attention-seeking or shock for shock’s sake, or is it just that it’s been a long time since someone has embraced the art from the way that I have? Perhaps it’s been a couple of decades since there’s been an artist that’s been as vocal about their opinions, as vocal about culture, religion, human rights, politics. I’m so passionate about what I do, every bass line, every drum fill, every EQ. Why is it that you don’t want more from the artist, why is it that you expect so little, so when I give and give, you assume it’s narcissistic?”

—Lady Gaga in Rolling Stone

"Flower" by Amos Lee

Such a soulful voice.